Tag Archives: C-PTSD

The 5 stages of narcissistic abuse recovery.

I went No Contact with my sociopathic NPD/ASPD ex in February, 2014 — almost three years ago. Enough time has elapsed that I’ve seen that there are several stages one goes through on the way to recovery and healing. There … Continue reading

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Looking for a Scapegoat (comments allowed)

Originally posted on A Blog About Healing From PTSD:
I am not doing well. In fact, emotionally speaking, this is the worst I have been in a long time. It’s embarrassing…. humiliating…. and humbling to admit this.  I thought  I…

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Part One: “Heart-Sync”– a psycho-spiritual therapy for trauma and attachment disorders.

***** This article will be in two parts. This part is a brief overview of HeartSync and how it works. The second part will be about my personal experience in Chapel Hill over the past four days.   I just … Continue reading

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Dear Father…

“Dear Father” by Taming the Tiger I usually shy away from anything too spiritual or religious, because I do realize many of my readers are atheist, agnostic, or of differing faiths–and I respect their right to believe as they wish. … Continue reading

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Depression is happiness.

I’m so depressed I had to call in sick at work and set up an emergency therapy session this afternoon.  I couldn’t sleep last night at all.   I’m crying almost all the time.    This is more than just … Continue reading

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Mindfulness keeps me from quitting therapy.

In my last post, Jocelyn made a comment about quitting therapy, and this reminded me of something important that’s kept me going: mindfulness. People in therapy, especially people who have cluster B disorders and have problems either regulating or accessing emotion, … Continue reading

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Breaking through and the emotional power of music.

Originally posted on Down the Rabbit Hole:
I can’t even begin to explain the details of what’s happening to me right now.   Saying I’m triggered would be an understatement.   Triggered?  I feel like I’m losing my fucking mind.…

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There should be no “shame” in having a Cluster B diagnosis.

Yes, another potentially controversial post.  Please hear me out before judging. There are some (actually, many) people in the blogosphere who believe that people with disorders like Borderline or Narcissistic Personality Disorder made some kind of conscious choice to have … Continue reading

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Child roles in dysfunctional families.

Credit: Artist unknown.   Wikipedia has an excellent, detailed article about dysfunctional family dynamics. Here I am just going to talk about the roles various family members play, and the kinds of families that become dysfunctional. If you’d like to … Continue reading

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Empty words.

“I love you.” Adult children of narcissists hear those words a lot.  But they ring hollow and false to my ears, because words are just words–it’s the actions behind them that give them meaning.  And I haven’t been shown much … Continue reading

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