Tag Archives: triggers

The bullies are winning and my heart is breaking.

Today I feel like I’ve been punched in the stomach and recovering from some terrible illness at the same time.  I have no energy.    I just want to pull the covers over my head and sleep.  But I can’t … Continue reading

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My conundrum.

I can’t take this anymore.  I’ve had about enough of the crapfest coming from the Trump White House, and the firing of H. R. McMaster, one of the only sane people left in his administration — only to be replaced … Continue reading

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What 2017 has taught me.

I feel like a victim again.   I was doing pretty well emotionally until this year.  Since I left my ex in 2014 and started blogging, slowly I began to feel freer and lighter emotionally.   I felt like I was finally … Continue reading

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The insanity of being a news junkie in the age of Trump.

Every day when I wake up, I check the news headlines. Maybe it’s just hypervigilance and wanting to reassure myself that Trump hasn’t started nuclear war yet.   This presidency makes me feel like I’m back in an abusive relationship and … Continue reading

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10 things that terrify me about Trump’s America.

I realize my last couple of posts have been dark and depressing, but there’s no sugarcoating the fact that what Trump is doing to Americans is abuse. I began this blog three years ago as a way to talk about … Continue reading

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I feel like I’m about to snap.

I’m not handing all the bad news well today, especially now that I have to worry about a major hurricane possibly hitting where my son lives next weekend.   All my C-PTSD and BPD symptom are triggered — dissociation, hypervigilance, … Continue reading

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Some days I feel like everything’s hopeless.

Some days it seems like they are winning.    Now we even have State TV.    The reason we had regulations were to keep something like that from happening.    I feel like a character in Orwell’s 1984 and we … Continue reading

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Free-floating anxiety.

I’m a nervous wreck today.  I didn’t go to work because of my nerves, and even though I always spend the whole day feeling guilty about staying out of work,  I keep doing it anyway.   I tried to sleep in, … Continue reading

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Email From My Mother

Originally posted on Sleeping Tiger:
I just checked my email for the first time in a little while. And found an email from my mother with the subject line reading, “???” I debated only for a moment whether to open…

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Always waiting for the other shoe to drop…

Originally posted on Lucky Otters Haven:
I think I made a kind of breakthrough in my therapy session tonight. For years one of my problems has been this overwhelming fear that something bad will happen to one of my kids.…

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