Tag Archives: despair

Some days I feel like everything’s hopeless.

Some days it seems like they are winning.    Now we even have State TV.    The reason we had regulations were to keep something like that from happening.    I feel like a character in Orwell’s 1984 and we … Continue reading

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My dark thoughts.

When I feel like this, the only way I can cope is to write. I had one of my “black mornings.” I don’t get them every day, but when I do get them, they are overwhelming. I’m getting less of … Continue reading

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The honeymoon is over.

I’ve been feeling quite strange the past week. It’s the worst I’ve felt in about a year. It started with feelings of anxiety and panic, racing and morbid thoughts and a feeling of unnamed dread. I’d try to nap and … Continue reading

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