Tag Archives: dissociation

I feel like I’m about to snap.

I’m not handing all the bad news well today, especially now that I have to worry about a major hurricane possibly hitting where my son lives next weekend.   All my C-PTSD and BPD symptom are triggered — dissociation, hypervigilance, … Continue reading

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Always waiting for the other shoe to drop…

Originally posted on Lucky Otters Haven:
I think I made a kind of breakthrough in my therapy session tonight. For years one of my problems has been this overwhelming fear that something bad will happen to one of my kids.…

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That “off” feeling in dreams.

Have you ever tried to explain something that can’t be explained?   Well, this subject came up in my post from last week about my subway dream (I have a lot of subway dreams even though I haven’t lived in … Continue reading

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“This could never happen in America.”

But it is. I’m talking about the increasing feeling of unreality and foreboding under this new administration, run by a sociopath that even ten years ago wouldn’t have had a snowball’s chance in hell of becoming president. I sat, frozen … Continue reading

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Why Scientology auditing is not at all like traditional psychotherapy (part 2).

Credit: “Trapped in the Closet,” South Park episode about Scientology.   In Part One, I wrote about how Scientology and the related Dianetics (a “therapy” technique started by science fiction writer L.Ron Hubbard) came into being, and why Scientology is so … Continue reading

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Looking for a Scapegoat (comments allowed)

Originally posted on A Blog About Healing From PTSD:
I am not doing well. In fact, emotionally speaking, this is the worst I have been in a long time. It’s embarrassing…. humiliating…. and humbling to admit this.  I thought  I…

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Something new I’ve noticed about narcissists.

I received an email today from a reader asking me if narcissists have preferences — that is, do they really have opinions of their own?  An example was used of a man who said he likes a certain TV show, … Continue reading

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The weirdness of my dreams.

I’ve been doing a lot of Google searches about dreams to find out if anyone else knows what I’m talking about, but I haven’t seen anyone else describe this exact same thing, which makes me wonder if it’s just me, … Continue reading

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The ultimate dissociative experience.

Death isn’t something I like to think about, much less write about.  In fact, it’s my biggest fear (outside of the death of one of my children).  Oh, I know all the pat arguments and rationalizations that it’s not so … Continue reading

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Making your inner judge work for you.

Credit: Me (click to enlarge image) I’ve recently met my Inner Critic, who from now on I’m going to call my Judge, because it’s funnier and seeing the Critic as cartoon-like helps me be able to make him seem  (I … Continue reading

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