I’m not handing all the bad news well today, especially now that I have to worry about a major hurricane possibly hitting where my son lives next weekend. All my C-PTSD and BPD symptom are triggered — dissociation, hypervigilance, obsessive monitoring of the weather/news in general, physical symptoms (fatigue, headache), snappishness, mood swings, isolation, feeling helpless, and intense anxiety are all symptoms that have returned and threaten to overwhelm me.
I recently quit therapy because I felt guilty about not wanting to talk about anything but the political situation, but dammit, it’s so triggering and I take it very personally, given my background of abuse. So I might have to go back soon.
I’ve been busy on Twitter (I’m meeting a lot of fellow #resisters there and it’s how I get the most up to date news). Today I just had to sound off. It was just stream of conscienceness venting. It feels good to get all this off my chest, even if no one was really paying attention. (Read bottom to top).
I chose my new Twitter user name because it makes me laugh and I need all the laughs I can get. Gallows humor does help.