Tag Archives: hypervigilance

Mystery package!

It drives me crazy when I get one of those orange slips from the Post Office saying I got a package or certified letter but am not there to sign for it. Being the worrywart and catastrophizer I am, I … Continue reading

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My stupid ego stands in the way of empathy.

There’s been something on my mind that’s been bothering me a lot, but I’ve hesitated posting about it because it makes me sound like a terrible person.  But I’ve always aimed to be honest on this blog, so I’m not … Continue reading

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A new day.

It’s the first day of Summer (or is it the second?), and things look much brighter today than they did last night. In the midst of a severe BPD/C-PTSD “episode,” (I’ll explain more in a minute), I published a post, … Continue reading

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No, you’re NOT being judged and watched constantly.

Lenora Thompson, who writes a blog for Psychcentral, wrote this post that I’d like to share.    I think most of us who were narcissistic abuse victims are hypervigilant and even paranoid–always looking over our shoulder for the next attack. … Continue reading

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Shouting at cars

I can relate to the “exaggerated startle response” and always being told by everyone to “relax” and “chill out” that this blogger describes. People suffering from PTSD and C-PTSD have to deal with the impatience of other people who don’t … Continue reading

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It isn’t all about me.

What I’m learning is that everything isn’t always about me. I used to always assume people were obsessing in a negative way about me and would interpret, say, a neutral expression or a lukewarm greeting as “that person must be … Continue reading

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My son didn’t escape unscathed.

This is not a photo of my son, but it looks a little like him. My 23 year old son was scapegoated and bullied by his father when he was a child and teen (which I’ve written about before). As … Continue reading

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The “fleas” of narcissism and being Aspie.

Fivehundredpoundpeep just posted this article yesterday, expanding on yesterday’s post about fleas acquired from narcissists who abused us, but this one from the perspective of an Aspergers sufferer who was horrifically abused and devalued by her sociopathic mother, MN sister, … Continue reading

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Self pity and stress.

Today wasn’t a good day, except for it being Friday. 1. I woke up with a pounding headache. 2. Traffic jam made me late again. 3. I wasn’t in a good mood and was being hypersensitive to everything. I felt … Continue reading

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Forever alone.

I have always been attracted to narcissistic men. And them to me. I spent 28 years (7 of those AFTER we divorced) living with a malignant narcissist substance abuser and raising children with him. Before Michael, I had three serious … Continue reading

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