Mourning.

I feel like I’m in mourning today.     I could barely get through my day.  I called my therapist and told him how upset I was and asked him if  crying and feeling this depressed over a presidential election was a normal reaction.    He shared with me that his phone had been ringing off the hook since last night because people are so depressed, despondent, hopeless, suicidal–and yes, many are crying too.    There are many, many of us feeling a great loss today.   Not over Hillary’s loss per se, but over the loss of hope for this nation.

It’s all over.  America, as we knew it, is no more.

But it’s been coming to this point for 40 years.  How could we have been so blind and denied what was obvious?

It’s all so surreal.

And the games haven’t even begun yet.   We are in deep shit.

This is the worst thing that could ever have happened to this country.   I can’t see anything good coming from it.

I see a Hunger Games future for this country.

I can relate to this song right now, so much.   It was recorded in 1965, a time of hope and innocence when the country was changing in a positive way and people were waking up to new possibilities.  Now everything’s all going to roll back to 50, 100 years ago–a time when women knew their place was in the home serving their authoritarian husbands,  there were no social support systems for the vulnerable, children were to be seen and not heard, homosexuality was considered a serious mental illness, and non-whites knew their place was in a servile role to the rich white men who ran things.

But people still flocked to America even then because they saw the possibilities, the promise of freedom and opportunity.

All of that is gone.

RIP AMERICA: 1776 – 2016

 

Further reading:

The Five Stages of Trump Grief: How to Go Through Them as Fast as Possible (from Mashable.com)

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About luckyotter

This blog is my journal. I just choose to share it with the world instead of keeping everything inside my head. I'm a recovering Borderline and have also struggled with Avoidant Personality Disorder. I also have Complex PTSD due to having been the victim of narcissistic abuse for most of my life. I write mostly about narcissism, because I was the child of a narcissistic mother, and then married to a sociopathic malignant narcissist for 20 years. But there's a silver lining too. In some ways they taught me about myself. This blog is about all that. Not all my articles will be about NPD, BPD or other personality disorders or mental conditions. I pretty much write about whatever's on my mind at the moment. So there's something for everyone here. Blogging about stuff is crack for my soul. It's self therapy, and hopefully my insights and observations may help others too.
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12 Responses to Mourning.

  1. I, too, am depressed. And TERRIFIED. You have written my thoughts in this post.

    I fear that almost 50% of us have been *doomed* by the reactionaries who came out to vote for an impulsive, narcissistic, self-aggrandizing billionaire “man of the people” with NO platform and NO experience, naively believing that a new broom will sweep CLEAN.

    O.M.G.
    xx,
    mgh
    (Madelyn Griffith-Haynie – ADDandSoMuchMore dot com)
    – ADD Coach Training Field founder; ADD Coaching co-founder –
    “It takes a village to transform a world!”

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  2. I am in urgent care because one of my dogs bit the other dog. At the vet the young female veterinarian said mine was the third dog that got bit today, and she was saying they thought even animals were reacting to election results. I admit I was wrong about Trump bring a shill for Hillary, however I was not wrong about none of them being pro life, pro woman or pro child. It was just that Hillary was a shill for Trump, not the other way around. It’s in wiki leaks.

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    • Probably true about the dogs or they were picking up on how desperate their owners must be feeling at this news. I am in Oz but I was so shocked to see this happen. Someone was saying on radio this morning he will probably only make one term but that’s enough to f up so much. I really feel for you all in America its no wonder you are feeling as you are.

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    • luckyotter says:

      It’s possible. I wanted Bernie, who was a shill for neither of them. I saw a heartbreaking picture of him crying as he saw the results coming in last night. I wish I could find it again now. He actually cares.

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  3. .jan says:

    I too am saddened that it has come to this, bit rather than succumbing to it, I will just fight harder for my country. I hope all of us will work to make this country great, and not give up. A setback yes, the end,no.

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  4. JIm says:

    Hope this doesn’t sound patronizing…

    I’ve been reading Pete Walker’s book about CPTSD and it occurred to me that this event could be very triggering to an emotional flashback for a lot of people.

    But maybe remember that as much power as Trump will have, it’s not as much as we might think, it’s not like our horrible childhood victimization will occur again and it will last forever.

    It was a close election and his opposition isn’t going anywhere, and checks and balances do still and will still exist in all probability.

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    • luckyotter says:

      I read Walker’s book (a very good book too) and this also occurred to me. I think a lot of people are triggered by his election. Maybe it won’t be as bad as everyone dreads.

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    • I’ve read Pete Walker’s books and I agree! Trump is my narc parents and my narc ex all rolled into one. But, you know what — I survived all of them and I will survive this joker too. 😀

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      • luckyotter says:

        After the grief passes, we have to mobilize and fight back. I intend to. I have hope because the Millennials have a very different and far more progressive mindset. When they all reach voting age (some are still in their teens) I think we will start to see some changes. They give me hope that eventually the tide will turn, but first, things are going to get ugly.

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  5. Dawn V. Cahill says:

    I think the beginning of the end for Hillary was when she insulted half the voters by calling them “deplorables.” That was an unfortunate choice on her part, because she also came off as arrogant and narcissistic as Trump. Note to Hillary: Don’t insult future voters by calling them names!

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