Free associating…

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What I have to say has nothing to do with the meme posted above and what is a meme anyway it seems like everything is called a meme these days but there have always been memes like in those sitcoms from the 70s and 80s with those dumb catchprases from them that everyone used to say all the time until you wanted to strangle all the lemmings who parroted them like that guy on that show I can’t remember the name of that always said Dy-no-myyyyyte god that was annoying but anyway that was a meme too and getting back to my point I wonder if the graphic above really is transparent for some people it isn’t for me but I’m weird in many ways and worry about a lot of silly things like that crusty thing on my back that seems like it could be skin cancer I worry about that and I had one on my hand in 2010 and it wasn’t skin cancer but it could have turned into it and  I’m at that age where people start to get cancer if they are going to get it but cancer doesn’t run in my family but I got a lot of sunburns as a kid which predisposes you and I used to smoke a lot and I don’t eat enough fresh fruits and vegetables but I do eat dark chocolate and I remember how thrilled I was when I found out dark chocolate is actually good for you but I don’t remember where I read that, well you can’t believe everything your read but some things you read are actually true so I need to stop being such a cynic but I’m cynical because I have trouble trusting anyone because so many people have screwed me over and I feel screwed over right now because my therapist is making me wait 2 weeks to see him so I think he’s trying to torture me and it makes me angry but I won’t go off on him because I used to go off on people and always regretted it or felt ashamed and I need to stop always feeling ashamed all the time because people can pick that up about you and then they take advantage of you and stomp all over you and try to screw you over and there I go talking in circles and that reminds me that people used to tell me I repeated myself too much and that brings me back to the shame thing again and I really need to stop feeling so ashamed because I’m a valuable person but I worry too much about everything like I’m worried about my tax return and getting a new car and that crusty thing on my back that I hope isn’t cancer but I used to get a lot of sunburns as a kid and I used to smoke a lot and i don’t eat enough fresh fruits and vegetables and why am I repeating myself again, oh yeah right, people used to tell me I repeated myself too much so I really have to stop writing but where do I stop, god I’m a boring person but TV is more boring than I am and I don’t have TV anymore so whatever blah blah.