I don’t care who reads this blog.

Back in February, my parents discovered this blog, despite my using a fake name. At first I was horrified, and then decided to write a letter to them and post it here in an attempt to defuse what I thought could be an…awkward situation.

Of course nothing happened. It’s not like my family (my mother in particular) has much to do with me anyway. I don’t use anyone’s real names so I can’t be sued. The worst that could happen would be…(drum roll please) SHE MIGHT SAY BAD THINGS ABOUT ME. 😮
Woo.

My FOO was already saying bad things about me anyway. After awhile of being afraid to post things about them, I started to again. I figured why the f*ck not.

It occurred to me maybe they were supposed to find it. Maybe it was God’s will. Maybe reading about how I felt for a change might even be GOOD for them. It’s certainly been good for me to get it out of my system–and has had the added benefit of opening up doors I thought were locked forever or never knew were there at all.

They look down on me because I never became “successful.” Well, I may yet become successful–not quite the way they had hoped though.

Writing about narcissism (and mental disorders caused by abuse) is my calling. It’s what I was born to do. I’ve never been more passionate about anything, ever. The life I was given was the best education I could have ever hoped for and has led to this.

Now my psychopathic ex knows I have a blog about narcissism too. He is trying to find it. He probably will. It’s not that hard to find. Apparently one of my kids told him and he’s worried that I might be writing about him.

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About luckyotter

This blog is my journal. I just choose to share it with the world instead of keeping everything inside my head. I'm a recovering Borderline and have also struggled with Avoidant Personality Disorder. I also have Complex PTSD due to having been the victim of narcissistic abuse for most of my life. I write mostly about narcissism, because I was the child of a narcissistic mother, and then married to a sociopathic malignant narcissist for 20 years. But there's a silver lining too. In some ways they taught me about myself. This blog is about all that. Not all my articles will be about NPD, BPD or other personality disorders or mental conditions. I pretty much write about whatever's on my mind at the moment. So there's something for everyone here. Blogging about stuff is crack for my soul. It's self therapy, and hopefully my insights and observations may help others too.
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5 Responses to I don’t care who reads this blog.

  1. Just Plain Ol' Vic says:

    Hm…isn’t it common for narcissists to think EVERYTHING is about them?!

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  2. Alaina says:

    How to Freak Out a Narcissist:

    For those folks who think the world revolves around them, it may be helpful to point out how insignificant any one individual really is. With a world population of approximately 7 billion, if you could say the name of each person who is currently alive at the rate of one name per second, non-stop, for 24 hours a day, how long would it take to say the name of each person?

    Over 221 years. That’s incredible, isn’t it? I checked it out on my calculator and it is true! This crazy fact might be enough to give a narcissist a heart attack! 🙂

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    • luckyotter says:

      That’s pretty interesting. I actually would have thought it would take longer, believe it or not.

      So out of 7 billion people, if 1% of them are narcs (which is the official estimate but I think it’s higher), that means there are what, 700 million narcs in the world right now. Yikes!
      Can I move to another planet?

      I think I’m going to post this.

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  3. mothererased says:

    Good for you for continuing to write whatever you want. Your parents have the luxury of ignoring it/denying it/ and still not taking any responsibility. That is their choice. Or they can seize the incredible opportunity to acknowledge the past, take responsibility and support your healing while healing themselves. Anyhow, glad you are still writing and it is wonderful that it is leading to other opportunities as well. Believe the opportunities, and your success and happiness can grow , and it will. Believe it with all your heart!

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