Why I changed my blog’s description.

I just changed this blog’s header description slightly.  It now says “Confessions of a Recovering Borderline.”  There are two good reasons for this.

  1. This blog has always has been (and probably always will be) confessional in nature.
  2. In my last session, my therapist gave me some more information about my current diagnosis (he said he had to think about it for awhile before he was sure).  The verdict is that I used to have BPD but no longer qualify for that label!   How cool is that! This is a huge, HUGE deal for me.     I wrote more about it in this post, which I decided not to put on this blog.  Blogging (among other things) had a lot to do with this “impossible” achievement.  Now I just have residual PTSD (actually C-PTSD if you’re not a DSM purist, which he is not, thank goodness) and that’s what I’m still working through and imagine I will be for some time.

I wanted to keep BPD somewhere in the blog’s header but don’t want to misrepresent myself by calling myself something  that no longer applies.  So that’s why I changed it a little.   Like me, this blog has been through many changes since I started it in September 2014, and it will keep growing and evolving with me.   I have no plans to ever take it down.

 

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About luckyotter

Recovering from BPD and C-PTSD due to narcissistic abuse from childhood. Married to a sociopath for 20 years. Proud INFJ, Enneagram type 4w5. Animal lover, music lover, cat mom, unapologetic geek, fan of the absurd, progressive Catholic, mom to 2, mental illness stigma activist, anti-Trumper. #RESISTANCE
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5 Responses to Why I changed my blog’s description.

  1. katiesdream2004 says:

    That is an accomplishment of growth and hard work. I want to give kudos for the insight your therapist displays by understanding that a BPD label isn’t permanently tattooed on your soul

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    • luckyotter says:

      It’s very hopeful because not many in the mental health community think there’s much hope for people with cluster B personality disorders. That I might have achieved this thing on my own is something I’m proud of. I hope this gives hope to others who have BPD who’ve been told they will have to live with it for the rest of their life and cannot be cured. NOT TRUE!

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  2. A recovering borderline….I like that! I’m happy you kept the word borderline in there because in this blog people can read about what has made us so. But the fact that you aren’t one anymore? I’m going to have to have a talk with my therapist about that myself.

    She had told me that a diagnosis of hers for me was PTSD and that she believes that that is what borderline is, a whole lot of PTSD.

    The fact that you aren’t one anymore…I wonder if it’s because you are independent of your family? I think it takes a family to create a borderline and since you really only mention your kids, then you sound like you are more on your own and free of them and therefore the diagnosis. It’s like starting the next chapter in a book.

    This announcement is so cool. Isn’t it wonderful to have recovered from something?

    I’m happy to hear that your intention is to keep this blog going. It has helped me immensely and already I don’t know what I’d do without it.

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    • luckyotter says:

      It feels great to not have that stigmatic label anymore but I did keep the term in there because I want BPD’s to know there is hope for them too. There’s a lot of misunderstanding about this disorder. Yes, I’ve heard that BPD is really just “a whole lot of PTSD” and I think I believe it myself. I’m not sure what the distinction is, tbh. But yay, I don’t fit the DSM criteria anymore, for whatever that’s worth.

      For me, it was a combination of going NC (well, Very Low Contact) with my ex and also VLC with my family. But blogging was/is powerful therapy. I couldn’t write anything while I was still with him. I had to get free first.

      I think BPD Transformation (who has an excellent blog about BPD but I don’t think posts anymore) was also deemed cured, but he doesn’t think BPD is a valid diagnosis. I’m not sure it is either.

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  3. Awesome! You have worked really hard over the past couple years. Self-discovery is a big journey!

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