Today I cried.

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[My lame attempt at freeverse poetry, for whatever it’s worth.]

Softer, more buoyant than ocean water
Welcome as a warm spell in January
and sudden as a summer squall
hot floods of tears from some unknown cistern rise up and
caress my face like
the loving touch of the mother I longed for and never had and
my fears and doubts fade and dissolve

Relaxing, not scared and
Melting into this dark warm and unfamiliar place
I sleep but never forget.

Ascending to the surface through an ocean of dissolving dreams
I cry out to the stars: Where are you? Who are you? How did you know?
I wait and wait and wait and I
hear nothing but the endless silence of the stars and
the crashing of the waves on the faraway shore and
the beating of my heart and

I wait

moonset

Then the answer comes: I’ve always been here.
Look inside and then look up.
Loving arms reach down and lift me up and
hold me like my mother should have and then I hear these words:

“You have passed this test.
Now, armed with the twin swords of truth and light
the dangers you faced can no longer harm you.
You are strong, you are safe and
God anoints you
with every tear that falls.”

14 thoughts on “Today I cried.

  1. *so
    Yes that’s right a secretary in the opera house. ….. then you retired and dedicated your life to stalking in fact didn’t you just spend the first two years of your retirement insulting my life πŸ™‚ I am afraid I can’t return to gratitude but I do apologise to LOH for this ridiculous conversion ending up on her blog. Although finally speaking to me rather than about me is something of an improvement.

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  2. Let’s keep things civil around here. I don’t know the whole story behind what is going on but any further antagonistic comments between commenters will be removed or disapproved. That goes for everyone!

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