“Fun and easygoing” me.


I’ve noticed something strange lately. People are treating me differently. People actually seem to like being around me. Someone at work told me everyone who sits at our table says they love working with me because I’m fun, easygoing, and know what I’m doing.

Of course I know what I’m doing but fun and easygoing? Me? I’ve also noticed people–even total strangers–smiling at me more. I always used to think everyone was scowling at me.

Has something in me changed that makes me nicer to be around, or is it just that my perception of how others view me has changed? I always used to worry that I was somehow unacceptable and probably acted the part. If you believe you’re worthless, people will treat you that way. Or is it just that when you hate yourself,  you just perceive people treating you badly when they really aren’t?

I don’t know the answer to that, but I do know I’m worrying a whole lot less about what people think of me, and that’s making me able to act a little more confident and genuinely interested in others.

12 thoughts on ““Fun and easygoing” me.

  1. Enjoy it…it may be that the DBT and mindfulness exercises have helped you to feel more comfortable with yourself. I believe that people can sense inner turmoil and will instinctively avoid it.
    If people are feeling more social toward you it may be a sign that you are getting better.

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  2. I bet it’s both things: you becoming healthier makes you more attractive to others, and you being healthier has changed your perception of how others feel about you.

    I was already wishing we could meet in person. Now I want that even more. But alas, North Carolina is so far from New Mexico.

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  3. I felt the same way the less anxious I got by the days. I am less worried about whether someone absolutely hates my guts or not haha. But I do relate. People tend to appear Linder when you’re kinder to yourself

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