“Outside” (Staind)

I’ve been thinking about this song a lot today and have been listening to it tonight. I like the melancholy but introspective mood it evokes in me.

I might be wrong, but I feel like the lyrics are about a Borderline guy singing about a relationship with a Narcissist woman and the way he sees his inner emptiness reflected in her and they can’t stop hurting each other. Pretty deep and depressing stuff, if I’m right.

Everything about this song is intense.

And you
Can bring me to my knees
Again

All the times
That I could beg you please
In vain

All the times
That I felt insecure
For you

And I leave
My burdens at the door

But I’m on the outside
I’m looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
‘Cause inside you’re ugly
You’re ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you

All the times
That I felt like this won’t end
Was for you

And I taste
What I could never have
It’s from you

All those times
That I tried
My intentions
Full of pride
And I waste
More time than anyone

But I’m on the outside
I’m looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
‘Cause inside you’re ugly
You’re ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you

All the times
That I’ve cried
All that’s wasted
It’s all inside

But I feel
All this pain
Stuffed it down
It’s back again

And I lie
Here in bed
All alone
I can’t mend

And I feel
Tomorrow will be okay

But I’m on the outside
I’m looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
‘Cause inside you’re ugly
You’re ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you

Written by Aarron Lewis • Copyright © Warner/Chappell Music, Inc
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About luckyotter

This blog is my journal. I just choose to share it with the world instead of keeping everything inside my head. I'm a recovering Borderline and have also struggled with Avoidant Personality Disorder. I also have Complex PTSD due to having been the victim of narcissistic abuse for most of my life. I write mostly about narcissism, because I was the child of a narcissistic mother, and then married to a sociopathic malignant narcissist for 20 years. But there's a silver lining too. In some ways they taught me about myself. This blog is about all that. Not all my articles will be about NPD, BPD or other personality disorders or mental conditions. I pretty much write about whatever's on my mind at the moment. So there's something for everyone here. Blogging about stuff is crack for my soul. It's self therapy, and hopefully my insights and observations may help others too.
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3 Responses to “Outside” (Staind)

  1. adamjasonp says:

    I remember this song, all the way back to before its official recording— hearing it in the car, backing vocals by… let’s just say someone else. Intense lyrics, yeah.

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