Update!

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I know I’ve been posting a lot the past couple of days, but the novelty of blogging hasn’t worn off yet, and I’m having too much fun with it. I’m also off work this week without much else to do, tbh.

While it’s more fun to write about fluffy things like snow and blogging, I can’t let that stop me from getting back to the real work here and the reason I started this blog in the first place. It’s not much fun to tell my story, and brings up a lot of emotional garbage I don’t want to deal with, but I know that to heal I have to do that. Procrastination is a huge problem for me and I refuse to procrastinate any longer! I need to get it out on “paper” because it’s the only way I can process it and all the emotional turmoil that comes along with being a psychopathic abuse survivor.

I feel like tonight is a good time to write the next part of my story. Because my marriage to my psychopath and its aftermath lasted for nearly 30 years, there’s no way I can get everything that happened in one post–it will probably be in 3 or more parts, including what I’m going through today.

Hopefully I’m not posting too much for a newbie. I worry I might get boring. I wish I was getting more hits and had more followers! But I guess that will come with time. I have to work on being more patient among a lot of other things.

So anyway, expect a new post sometime very late tonight.

You can scroll down a little on the homepage if you didn’t read Parts One and Two (childhood through adulthood prior to my marriage). I think it’s important to read those first because my narcissist mother had a lot to do with how my personality was shaped as well as a lot of the bad choices I made later on trying to find the love I never got from the one person who was supposed to love me unconditionally.

4 thoughts on “Update!”

  1. Hello LuckyOtter… I’ve been following your posts – for the few days that you’ve been up and running. Learned about your site when you commented over on Dr. Simon’s site (manipulative-people.com).

    I want to encourage you to continue the battle for your sanity and peace of mind. Site’s like Dr. Simon’s, and ChumpLady.com are great resources… blogging about it will also help you (and others, like me!). From what I’ve read so far, you’ve gotten quite a bit of clarity – you’ve even reached the place where you can write about it, and share it. This is great progress!

    You have a nice style… don’t worry about being boring – you’re not! That’s why I’m tuning in, despite a tough schedule.

    Looking forward to more of your work.

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  2. Hi Brent! Thanks for taking the time to follow my blog. I do have more clarity now than if I had just come out of the relationship. I finally got the courage to kick him to the curb back in Feb–it’s been during that time I’ve had the time to think and have finally come to the point in this journey I;m able to blog about it. I wouldn’t have been able to do so 7 or 8 months ago. He’s still trying to get his hooks back in me, but I’ve made things pretty hard for him lol.

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    • Yes… it really is a growth process; things that grow need time.

      I suggest ChumpLady.com – if you haven’t checked it out already. It’s an excellent source of inspiration and guidance, with a huge following/community. Also helpful for dealing with the types that “don’t know when to quit”… Chump Lady recommends “No Contact” (NC). Check her out when you can!

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  3. I will definitely check out that site. I’m reading everything I can find on this subject.
    As for No Contact. technically we are. I got a restraining order on him because he threatened my daughter but that will be described in my next blog post. I don’t have contact with him directly but my daughter does. She has a love/hate relationship with her father. But he still uses her sometimes to try to get at me. More on that later though. He knows exactly what I think of him.

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