Scientology: a cult of psychopathy


Scientology, like most cults, uses exactly the same brainwashing techniques the narcissist does to recruit and retain its members. Here’s a video I found on the Ex-Scientologist Message Board, where Sam Vaknin talks about the “cult of the narcissist,” and even though it’s not specific to Scientology, it’s spot on in describing the mind games narcissists use to trap their prey (sorry, I was unable to embed the video). The same techniques apply to most cults. Scientology is one of the most dangerous.

In 1978 and 1979, I flirted with Scientology. This happened when I came across one of its books (one of the only ones not written by its founder L. Ron Hubbard, who was not only a malignant narcissist of the highest order, but also a very bad writer), an easy to read and humorous “self help” book called “How to Choose your People,” by a writer named Ruth Minshull. The book was discontinued many years ago, probably because it wasn’t written by Hubbard and therefore not acceptable “scipture.” “How to Choose Your People” was entertaining and well written, and I found its idea of something called “The Tone Scale” intriguing and it seemed to make sense. I liked the idea that emotions ran on a sort of continuum, with one logically leading to the next. Every human being can be placed somewhere on this “tone scale.” Although most people move around on the scale according to their mood, everyone can be placed at a “home” tone, where they will be most of the time. The “tones” ranged from Apathy (the lowest you could go–this would be where severely depressed and suicidal people are) to Enthusiasm (very happy and contented people). Each tone was assigned an arbitrary number, although no one ever explained what those numbers meant.

There were two “emotions” around the middle of the scale, called Covert Hostility (1.1) and No Sympathy (1.2, making it slightly “better”). Although not at the bottom of the scale, while I was involved in Scientology (and the related Dianetics, the mental “technology” that is similar in some ways to psychoanalysis and serves as a tool to brainwash its members), Covert Hostility and No Sympathy were considered by most Scientologists to be the two worst places to be on the Tone Scale. No one wanted to be labeled a “1.1.” Because if you were, it meant you were a Suppressive Person–that is, a psychopathic person who could harm the Church and its members. If you were pegged a “1.1” or a “1.2” you could be excommunicated or punished by a cruel form of shunning (which I was subjected to at one point).

The traits of someone with a “tone” of Covert Hostility or No Sympathy are exactly the same of those of the malignant narcissist. Here is a picture of the tone scale as it appeared on the cover of Minshull’s 1976 book. (There is an expanded tone scale too, which has additional levels, but for our purposes this one is sufficient).


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So I finished Minshull’s book and was intrigued enough to go to the local Scientology Center (on New York’s upper west side–I was living in Queens, NY at the time) and find out more. They gave me a “personality test,” that was supposed to identify what my issues and weak points were. There were 200 questions on the test, but when I was done, someone sat down with me and went over my results and convinced me I needed Dianetics auditing or classes in Scientology (much cheaper than Dianetics auditing) to overcome these weak points. The recruiter was very convincing and friendly, and assured me I would only be set back $15 to sign up for the HAS course (Hubbard Apprentice Scientologist aka “Communication Course”), which was really training in something called Training Routines (TR’s) which were used as brainwashing techniques.

At first the TR’s were very seductive–they were fun and actually seemed to work. They did help me be able to “confront” people better, or at least seemed to. The TR’s themselves involved things like sitting in a chair staring at someone as long as you could without reacting, laughing, or looking away. After this, the ante was upped to something called “bullbaiting,” where the person could try to get you to react and “lose your Confront” by insulting you, trying to make you laugh, or calling you names. There were higher levels of TR’s that involved walking across the room, touching things, asking if birds could fly, and reading passages from “Alice in Wonderland” of all things.

All these things were supposed to help you communicate with others better and raise your “tone,” but in actuality, these were all brainwashing techniques that would eventually result in giving you the infamous blank stare that many Scientologists seem to have while under the cult’s thrall.

After I “passed” the Communications Course (by getting a “floating needle” on a lie-detector type of device called the E-Meter), I was convinced without too much difficulty to sign up for the next course, the HQS course (Hubbard Qualified Scientologist). That one set me back $250. (The prices are probably much higher today). By this time of course, I’d been sufficiently indoctrinated that $250 for further “processing” and “training” didn’t seem that bad. It didn’t take much to convince me to hand over the money.

In order to help pay for the course (because in those days $250 was a lot of money, especially for a 19 year old) it was suggested I work at the Center part time, answering phones and opening and distributing mail. The position paid nothing, but I got “credits” to help pay for the course. Of course, by now I was spending most of my free time at the Center, because right after “work” it was time for the classes, which ran about 4 hours a night (5 days a week).

Students were closely monitored and every class ended with a session on the E-Meter. If you were caught yawning or daydreaming you were told you had a “misunderstood word” and had to go back and re-read Hubbard’s unreadable material to try to find the word you did not understand. You were not allowed to move on until you found the word and “passed” on the E-Meter. I began to realize I wasn’t having much fun anymore, but if you criticized Scientology or its “teaching technology” in any way, you would be sent to Ethics.

Scientology E-Meter

No one wanted to be sent to Ethics. If you were sent to Ethics, it meant there was a problem and you were considered a “Potential Trouble Source” and disciplinary action would be taken. I was sent to Ethics about three times, all for very minor transgressions such as minor criticism. The punishments ranged from having to re-read material (and be “passed” being connected to an E-Meter), to cutting off friends and family members who could be potential “Suppressive Persons” or enemies of Scientology (you would be required to write them a letter telling them you were cutting them off), to shunning, to excommunication.

I was once subjected to shunning. I was told although I would still be required to fulfill my job duties and attend classes, no one would be allowed to speak to me and I was allowed to speak to no one (unless it was directly related to my job or something I was learning). It was horrible. This torment on for several days, until I was “passed” up a level and allowed to be spoken to again. But before that could happen, I had to go up to every high level member and employee, make amends to them and “re-introduce” myself.

Toward the end of the HQS course, you are told to recruit other people into Scientology. I had to go outside, no matter what the weather, and try to talk people into coming up to the Center to take its personality test. The more advanced TR’s taught in this class became increasingly bizarre. These sessions could go on for hours, and as part of the training, I was also required to “audit” other students and conduct TR’s on them. If they proved difficult or uncooperative, I was the one who was blamed and was not allowed to stop “running the TR’s” until my student had passed on the E-Meter. If it went on all night, then so it did. You were not allowed breaks to eat or rest, and neither was your student. I remember once being so exhausted from lack of sleep and hunger that I burst into tears in the middle of running a session, and was immediately sent to Ethics and that’s how I got the “shunning” punishment. I was stunned by their total lack of empathy.

I thought about leaving, but didn’t dare–because they threatened you with something called “Fair Game.” No one ever explained exactly what that was, but in Hubbard’s indecipherable scripture, “fair game” appeared to imply the Church reserved the right to stalk you, torment or even kill you if you “blew” (left). I’d also paid so much money into it by this point and spent so much time with them that I was hesitant to toss in the towel.

Shortly before I was to graduate from HQS (which I never did finish), I was sent to talk to a recruiter about my next “step up the bridge.” I was told I should sign up for “Life Repair,” which cost $6K. I told the recruiter I did not have that kind of money. The recruiter turned to the hard sell at that point. He told me to get a bank loan or ask my parents for the money. Neither was possible. There was no way I could pay back the bank, as my other (paying) job was part time and paid only $2.75 an hour (minimum wage at that time), and my parents were not the type to hand over large sums of money, even for something legitimate.

Finally, after two hours of unsuccessfully trying to get me to sign up for this $6,000 auditing package, the recruiter gave up and was quite hostile to me after that. He not only told me that I must not really be interested in moving up the Bridge, but that I was probably a Suppressive Person and an enemy of Scientology because I would not put myself in huge debt to continue to be brainwashed.

It was at this point I left the Church. I just didn’t care anymore. I had gradually come to realize that the “emotional tone” of the organization was somewhere around Covert Hostility and No Sympathy–which was quite interesting since those were the tones that were the most hated and feared and were the realm of the dreaded Suppressive Person. In other words, Scientology was a psychopathic, narcissistic cult, founded by a psychopathic malignant narcissist (1.1 on his own Tone Scale) whose ravings (and fabrications as a “war hero” among other things) are legendary. What they were really doing was projecting their own emotional tone (malignant narcissism) onto those who disagreed with them.

I also realized how I had been gradually seduced into this psychopathic organization through misrepresentation, manipulation, threats and lies. The personality test and the inexpensive and fun HAS course that promised to help me feel happier and more confident was merely the “love bombing” phase before the abuse that would come later and increase over time. I did NOT want to become one of the upper-level Scientologists, with their blank, weird stares, creepy smiles and total lack of empathy. Just look at Tom Cruise today: does he even seem human anymore? Hell, I’d rather be a Suppressive Person any day than one of them.

I didn’t get nearly as far up the “Bridge” as many other people, and therefore did not experience some of the trauma and torture inflicted on members who are more deeply enmeshed with this psychopathic cult. Eventually they WILL take over your entire life. For anyone interested in finding out more about the evil mindgames this cult plays, its psychopathic paranoia about both government agencies like the IRS and its hatred and fear of traditional psychotherapy and psychiatry, and the horrific (and sometimes fatal) punishments inflicted on many of its members and their families, I highly recommend either of these two websites that call out Scientology for what it really is.

The Ex-Scientologist Message Board: (This is where I found the Sam Vaknin video posted at the beginning of this article).
Operation Clambake: The Inner Secrets of Scientology:

Oh, and this is my 300th post!


30 thoughts on “Scientology: a cult of psychopathy

    • It took me a long time to gain the courage to write about it. It was a pretty bad experience, although interesting and taught me a lot about cults. It was fun for about 2 weeks. Pretty much hell for almost 2 more years.

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  1. Fascinating read. Thank you. I almost joined the Jesuit order when I was in my early 20s. Here’s my story:

    My Affair with Jesus

    The Cult of the Narcissist (Text) (clearer version)

    Narcissistic and Psychopathc Leaders in Positions of Authority

    For the Love of God: Narcissists and Religion

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  2. I’ve studied religions and know something about Scientology. I believe it is brainwashing and a mind control methods “sold” to the public. Maybe it was developed by the MK Ultra Set with Hubbard as a front man. Anyhow one knows there is something darker there then just some guy writing Science Fiction and telling us that humans came from outerspace and doing away with Thetans. There is much of which is Satanic about Scientology.

    Google Scientology and Secrets.

    Here is a book I suggest too, it may not expose the deepest secrets but exposes enough of the money making, abuses, human slavery and corruption. When you find out they brainwash people to sign up lifelong as slaves on a ship to serve Hubbard and pals, it is mindblowing.

    With the Jesuits, those who study real world history, and know about such things as the “black Pope” and the Knights of Malta” know they are anything but Christian.

    Sadly there is a lot about religions in this world that is about control. I believe freedom lies in being born again in Jesus Christ, and there God warns you of false religious charlatans and your personal relationship with Him supercedes all of the above. There are bad “Christian” pastors and they are to be tested by God’s Word.

    I am so happy you escaped Scientology Lucky Otter.

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    • I don’t know too much about the Jesuits except the few I knew at the boys’ Catholic school (the “brother” to my girls’ Catholic school) – they are extremely well educated and you can find them teaching at a lot of colleges and universities. The ones I knew were all very good teachers and would be considered “cool” by students.
      I could see Sam being rather happy as one except for having to obey a lot of rules and other things a narcissist wouldn’t like. He would probably like the interaction and educated conversation.
      Sam, what do you have to say about that? (if you see this)

      Other than that, I don’t too much about Jesuits or any other Catholic order. I’ll have to read up on it more. I would not doubt you are correct about what the Jesuits know about secret societies because they seem to know about a lot of thngs. It is very interesting.

      I’m happy I escaped too, but I will say it was an interesting experience and taught me a lot. So I don’t regret the experience as unpleasant as most of it was.
      Thank you also for the links, Peep.
      I hope you are feeling better.


    • Sure is. *shudder*
      I forgot to tell about the part where as a punishment I was required to go to the library, find the names and phone numbers of a bunch of psychiatrists on a list they gave me, call them up and question them about their views about Scientology. I was supposed to say I was doing a study for a college class. So they made me lie and spy on people they hated too. They are very opposed to psychiatry and psychology.


        • Tom Cruise is one of the most arrogant, obnoxious, controlling and scary narcissists I’ve ever seen. I would not want to be alone in a room with him. Poor Katie. I hope she and Suri will be okay — he must have done some damage to Suri–I worry about her, When Katie was with Tom she just looked so unhealthy and miserable and was starting to look old, too. Also apparently he used his mother and sisters as his flying monkeys to keep her from leaving. She was so unhappy 😦


  3. This post had me walking down memory lane. Right around 1980, I watched as a sweet friend I had made at summer church camp, ventured into Dianetics. We corresponded by mail (in the days of pen pals). He writing became very distant and threatening..I stopped writing to her. I never investigated much into it, and I really appreciate you sharing this experience.πŸ’š

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  4. So glad you got out of that disaster when you did! I was part of a cult for a while (about a year) back in my misspent youth, but of course I had no idea at the time that it was a cult. They had me fooled because their theology didn’t seem to be out of the mainstream, or at least it didn’t differ appreciably from the brand of Christianity I’d been raised on. It wasn’t until much later that I saw the place for what it was. Years after I’d moved on, gotten married, had kids, etc., I was listening to someone on the radio describing the hallmarks of a religious cult, and I was flabbergasted to realize that that group I’d been part had all of them. Life certainly is full of surprises, isn’t it?

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    • Wow, that must have been a scary moment for you, when you realized the group you were with was a cult.
      They are very good at fooling you into thinking it’s something other than what it really is but eventually the truth comes out. You were smart to get away.

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      • I don’t know if “smart” is the word; I just had a growing sense that I really didn’t fit in there, and I was sick of the abuse and all the other crap going on (and believe me, at the time I didn’t know the half of it). I knew it was time to move on, and I wanted to go back to the midwest, where I grew up. It was probably sheer exhaustion and homesickness more than actual intelligence that caused me to leave the place!

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  5. I love the tone scale too, however ive always been weary of Scientology. Glad to know you were able to get out. Great blog, keep up the writing I also enjoy writing πŸ™‚

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    • Thank you, and I completely forgot I wrote this post! Most people don;t even know what the tone scale is. Shhh, don’t tell anyone, but I still use it. It’s the most useful thing I got out of scientology. I think it actually has validity and matching tones to raise someone up a notch does work.


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